The Past

well I'm kinda missing all of my childhood:
when I was so innocent and everyone likes it
when I was be in one happy family
when I was not worried about anything
when I can hug my mother and father everytime I need a warmth
when I have a little secret with my older brother
when I learn about how to bike with my brother
when my mommy cooks me a very delicious cake every birthday
when my grandmother wasn't too old to carry me for walk

well I can't mention it one by one. I'm about to cry just to remember it :')
It has been long gone.
It was a very great memory.

The Wedding

today I attended a wedding of aghni's sister (mba nana)

(aghni, mba nana and me ---> feeling short)
taken by mas taufik (mba nana's husband)

the gift: bodyshop, clinique and others. what a gift!

after they declared their marriage today, I've been thinking of mine. I've been thinking how it will be going on me. I just don't feel ready for commitment issue (for now). I will be marry once in a lifetime. I promise my self. and it feels too big for me. I just don't feel ready for all of those think. maybe 7 or 9 years from now I gotta be go for it.
But I still get a long way to go huh? I am 17 by the way.

well.. anyway, I hope they are always be a happy couple for the rest of their life. amin :)

I hope you guys enjoy being in the same bedroom for the first time :)

New Shoes from UNO shoes store

Hey Readers! I am selling shoes!

suede on white, cream, black, brown, maroon
Rp. 180.000,00

you can get this shoes by contact me:
email: sekarbestari@live.com
yahoo messenger: helosekar
facebook: sekar bestari
or you can just comment this post

you can have your custom design of your own! feel free to have a chit chat with me :)

The Beautiful Azka

(sekar: 2010)
leizer moi vous emerveille le belle Azka
well, she is my boyfriend's little sister

Sorry For Having a Blast

(meilany, me, aulia, azka)

today I have a school free and decided to go swim with my girls. they are so gorgeous.

and having dimsum for lunch at quality hotel


and this one is mutia and me, I got a new tattoo!

I Want a Blackberry(tm) Phone

(sekar: 2010)

just few days ago I was thinking of buying a new cell phone, I mean a blackberry. well I don't know why but I just want it. I see some of my friends using it and it's kinda fun that you can push email or having messenger in very high speed mobile everywhere. but then I was thinking some reasons why I don't need it that much. what will happen in this earth when I can do my blackberry messenger? is there something special? I still can do common short messages from my current mobile phone. and I can do messenger on my pc everytime I need it at home. I'm not so mobiling like any business man or ceo or whatever. my father once said to me that he's rather not using blackberry because everybody use it today, so every single second of his day will be disturbed by the email that come to him and it's annoying especially at the sleep time. He has to stay mobile every single second.
and secondly, I just don't feel so right to ask my father to buy me one. This phone is not necessary for me and I admit it. Though actually I can buy it with my own money, but then I realize that I still have to pay the messenger cost monthly which is I have double internet payment monthly. what the heck I will not do that!
so I think for now I don't need it. But I still want it.
what else for me by using blackberry better than for being GAUL

3 things on 3 days

a big big cup of Häagen-Dazs (from my boyfriend) on tuesday, my handmade bracelets on wednesday, and new glasses on thursday!
you should envy me. would you would you would you?

The Feast

(sekar:2010)

"Les rêves des amoureux sont comme le bon vin
Ils donnent de la joie ou bien du chagrin
Affaibli par la faim je suis malheureux
Volant en chemin tout ce que je peux
Car rien n’est gratuit dans la vie"
Camille

Listen to her

The Bestfriend Ever

mba nur

I'm kinda weird. The bestest friend I have is not a school partner, a mom or another bestfriendforever from high school. My Bestfriend is mba nur. She is my house assistant. I know her since I was in kindergarten.
She really knows me inside and out. She can make me feel being helped when I have my school assigment unfinished, or make me feel right when I have no money at the end of month (she's willing to lend me some), She cooks me every meals I want (but sometimes she can't cook it), She buys me everything I need, and she listen to all of my story.she is the most caring person in my life. does your bestfriend will ever do all those things for you? well, I like her a lot.I don't know what should I do without her.
Thanks god for send her for me :)
please bless her forever.

Too Much ISO

meilani putri utami

"I've been working from seven, seven, seven, to eleven
every night and It kinda makes my life a drag...
a drag, drag, oh yeah it makes a drag.
Baby, Since I've Been Loving You, I'm about to lose,
I'm about lose lose my worried mind."
corrine bailey rae

Moving Fast

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
Keanne

I feel like suddenly crying this night.
I am not moving on something. I'm not doing anything better. I am such a useless.
I am such a coward just to foresee something in my life. I am too worried about what will happen tomorrow. I feel like it's just a little time I got. I want a big thing with less effort.
even I can not just stop my crying right now :'(

I think all I need is just a hug of a friend who will tell me that I will always gonna be good and my life is going on it spin properly. I need a little share and hand. everybody needs one when they are down.

#sorry for giving you a pile of trash

A Little Love From My Father

my daddy gave this wooden love symbol yesterday. he got the wood (I forget the name of the wood) from Karimunjawa. He told me that people say it can help you to cure from animal toxic.
my dad honed it himself. soooo cool. I love my daddy a lot. he promised me to carve my name on it soon. who would be happier than me :)

Oh ya, do you love animal? show it by these cute things!

(necklace 'My Bestfriend Rescued Me' for $5.95 )



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(bracelet 'Until They All Have a House' for $3.95)

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(polyester bag for $14.95)

get them now everyone! so you can help lot of animals for having a house :D
you can order them at Animal Rescue - Pet Shop

and one more thing, I have a new adorable little friend named azka aka thena, she is beautiful, smart, can do dance, and I just like her. she is my boyfriend's little sister by the way :D
I want to show you her blog, follow this link!

The First Date

colouring pens and pencil on paper

(sekar: 2010)

this post special dedicated for my boyfriend. he wore them at our first date. I'm not sure he still remember it but I do! it was July 4 on 2009. Transformers 2 on XXI cinema.

*I don't even remember what I wore that time.

Guilt Free

coloring pens and pencil on sketchbook
(sekar: 2010)

Do you have some special diets? I have everybody.
I am not eating at evening and less sugar consume. Actually I have no special disease or something. It's about my weight and body proportion. I got it all wrong. I AM FAT. that's why I made all those special diets.
The Harvest help me to have a snack at noon. It's all organic and less sugar. Feel free to eat a lot chocolate from them, you don't have to feel guilty :D

Genie On the Colour Pencil, What Food Should I Eat Today?

this noon is raining, ashes rain too over my house. hot chocolate and chocolate bars help me a lot.
I wish I could share chocolates with merapi eruption victims over the evacuation lot :(

#pray for Indonesia, everybody please.