Termakan Omongan Sendiri

*I start to write in Indonesian right now because of some reasons: I have never been living in a country that fully use english as the main language or being active talker in english. so it maybe hard for me to give you idioms that english usually use. but I speak indonesia very fluently so I better with it. By the way, you can use translation that provided in my blog (you can find it in the right side of this page)*

Pernah ngga sih kamu kemakan omongan sendiri? misalnya nih suatu hari kamu bilang kamu ngga akan beli iPad karena ngga butuh atau pemborosan atau apaan sih kaya anak gaul pake iPad atau alasan yg lainnya. tiba tiba di suatu hari yang cerah.... tada, kamu update twitter, twitter for iPad. Dan ada segudang excuses dari kamu entah bilang bahwa tuntutan profesi atau karena dibeliin atau tuntutan jaman (pret banget). Dan akhirnya pada ngatain kamu kemakan omongan sendiri atau ngga konsisten lah atau labil atau apalah itu yg intinya offensive buatmu. Kalo saya mah who cares, emang saya pikirin? karena saya pikir People Changing. Yeah, kita semua berubah. Excuse yang mungkin bodoh banget dan klise. tapi memang kenyataannya seperti itu, bagian dari hidup. growing up, lingkungan yg berubah, pembelajaran, dan pola pikir. Tidak ada yg selamanya sama terus, kecuali emang udah sifat dari alam bawah sadarnya *opoh*. Seharusnya ngga usah lah mempermasalahkan bahkan mencibir orang orang yg kemakan omongan sendiri. Cukup diperhatikan saja (engga juga gapapa). Nanti malah suatu hari kita kemakan omongan sendiri bahwa ngga akan kemakan omongan sendiri setelah ngatain yg kemakan omongan sendiri :D
tapi menurut saya ada baiknya juga ngga usah banyak omong biar akhirnya nanti ngga jadi senjata makan tuan :D
stay real everybody!

I Am Young (Or Still Young)

Young Blood by The Naked and Famous (Directed by Campbell Hooper and Joel Kefali)

I just realized that I am young (or still young) when I heard that song.
Fyi, I always feel too old because I'm 18.
Feeling old is not good at all. I stop being fun and young instead of worry I would seem weird or pathetic.
the way how young people be energetic in the video, you may call them pathetic or 'lebay amat sih neng'. But, when you slightly realize, being young is one in a lifetime. You can make being-a-young-person as an useful excuse for everything you do especially the pathetic things, like having crazy romance or crazy acts. Just say, "I am still so young, what's wrong with doing that crazy stuffs huh?" When you are old, you can't never make it some excuses like that. Being young is a real heaven.
like Indonesian would say: 'namanya juga anak muda!'
hail young people!

*tapi juga jangan sering sering kali neng*

pencil on paper. original work from me.

Nowadays people like so much being on social network. Twitter, facebook, blogger, etc.
Sharing your life by updating status, twitting or posting an entry. What is the main purpose of it? Of course sharing, to let people know what you feel or do. But then, we start to be so self centered. Like having our bad opinion or judging something in negative way and it leads to trap other people to feel as bad as you. how cruel ya..
I obviously did that things to, I wanted people feel what I feel. But now, that was just really my old mistake. I have a good attitude, I will share the good thought of mine as a growing up woman.
ha!
xoxo

TV Show

yesterday I and my father had time together watching television (which is I rarely do).
we were watching Jejak Si Gundul, you may read the review here. Not just watching, we were comparing to another tv show, Jika Aku Menjadi, here is the review.
as I read Diana Rikasari's blog post today here, I feel like writing my discussion here in my blog.
first, don't be mad at anything I write, because I kinda free styling on writing, there is no purpose to hurt anybody's feeling.
secondly, someone's ever get mad of what I wrote, so I kinda traumatic, hehe.

merely, Indonesian like to show mellow dramatic material on television. tears, sympathy and kinds. But, I don't think we should do that. why don't we start showing its joy than its tears. like showing more 'Jejak Si Gundul' than 'Jika Aku Menjadi'.
my point here is, every people want to be equally treated. everybody has their self esteem.
I regret it that the tv show really have its show so cruel, seriously, lowering someone value by comparing to our own value? that is ridiculous. we are all the same, aren't we?
in my sentence 'comparing to our value' which is I mean we, who live not-in-farm environment, the tv show is like wanting us to say "thanks God I have better life than 'Jika aku menjadi people' ", that is so stupid. do you think we are better than them? nobody's better than nobody. In case, like Diana Rikasari would say in her post, 'We should tell him how much we envy his simple, humble life in the village, because life in the city is full of complexities. We should provide him the faith that he can make a betterment in life if he works harder. We should support him to never feel disheartened, for life, no matter what, works in many different ways. And we guide him with whatever knowledge or information we have, so he can be inspired' that is what I really want to tell here actually, thanks to Diana.

I my self, hate to be treated low or less. I'd rather get moral and respect help better than money and all that material stuff that seem to talk like, 'oh pity you, I can't imagine how hard your life, you are so poor'

I Have the Coolest Phone Case Ever

I especially made it for my self. bagus kan? great huh?

I am feeling great today. really great.
I got my salary from some work back days, and I have a new job today. a really nice job to me: drawing. how cool eh? get paid for something we love.
most times I feel less confident about my self. wondering why I'm not good enough, feeling small, useless, cupu, yada yada yada.
most times I am too afraid. afraid of making progress, afraid of what people will say, afraid of most bad things lah..
and now I maybe wake up from the dark age, aware that I totally have something to show, totally have something cool. I start to take some jobs that actually long time ago few people want me to do but I stop my self because I was too afraid that I am not good enough, that I was afraid of disappointing them. But, life is about trying, once you may fall but you can always wake up. don't be afraid ;)
2 days ago Sonia Prabowo and me had a little conversation that makes me realize all that above. convince me that I am special. And one year from now I am preparing my sketch exhibition, wish me luck, it's all thanks to her :)