Am I Ready?

taken from Sea Wolf's video, The Violet Hour

This year been so rough to me: the break up, hated by someone, freshman year in college, the lack of wish and longing. This year is so lame. I am so lame. Okay, I pass the national final examination and SNMPTN test very well, but that was just what I need to do, not what I want to do. get it? no? just forget it.

Sometimes we think we just stay in a same lame person all of this time, but when you realize, you have grown up, you're getting better. Be confident of yourself and don't waste time.
My resolution for 2012 is very simple: not wasting time, my future is my present. So, when all of this time I always talk to my self like: I want to learn how to cook the creme brule.. starting tomorrow, or maybe sunday, or next monday. I will emphatically talk to myself to do everything that I want to do tomorrow right now! yeah. I've been an expert procrastinator this whole time, and that will be over starting tomorrow! ok.. starting right now.
what a smart resolution I have. wish me luck! and have a great new year everybody :D

P.S.
just saying to whole world, that I have to over the break up in a classy way, so I'll talk to my ex later on.
and.. I have to over this enemy status because I don't do hate and this is so killing me actually. No, it's not because I'm a goody good person or being a virgin nun-ny, it's just, felt not so good to be hated you know, so.. I wish I can fix this up, asap. I need some supportive friend right now... see yaaaa, I'm calling my friends right now!

When A Guy Has A Crush On You

he will stroke his hair like that.

In every movie, when a guy fall for a girl, he will do the same thing like the picture above.
And when I notice some guys are doing that thing around me, I always feel flattered :D

*well, then, from now on you'll consider to stop doing that, don't you? oh please, just don't stop doing that.. pretty please.

The Holiday

happy holiday everyone!
I am introducing, Citra Winedar.

Gentle Choco For Sisterhood

Today my sister arrive at town. yeiy.
At night I made her a cup of hot sugar-free-chocolate to warmth the moment.
friends and lovers may come and go, but the sisterhood will last forever :D

Think Complete-ly

if you just focus in one part....

you'll miss how cute the whole thing is. so, just don't overthink. think cute :D

the 'talent' is dek dino. he was me and my brother's favorite doll back then. we had like hundred dolls that time. My father loved to buy us doll when he went out of town. hihi.
I love my brother so much, we used to play dolls when I was like 4 years old, though he is a boy, he didn't mind to play doll! with me! and sometimes he asked me to play super nintendo and playstation with him. our favorite multiplayer game on nintendo was gufi and his nephew, max, adventure. what a super childhood I had!

oh ya, anyway, merry christmas everyone!

Finding the Light

So many college tasks but I'm so dull right now. oh inspiration where can I find you? (or buy you?)
well, what makes us dull, I think of some reasons:
1. completely center to one feeling.
2. too lazy to think
3. too afraid to think
4. too many ideas, can't pick the best one ._.

Feeling Great

W for Winner

taken at my family favorite secret beach out of town, somewhere in central java :-D

I'm happy because my nail is polished, I'm happy because I feel the beach breeze, I'm mostly happy over little thing. It's not because my low standard of happiness, but actually, I try to enjoy every occasion I have even the most simple.
Maybe that's why I sad over little thing too.

Semua Orang Sinis, Termasuk Google

very popular problem

PS. maksud hati mencari 'mengapa jogja disebut sebagai kota pelajar', baru nulis mengapa jo.... eh suggestion-nya 'mengapa jodoh tak kunjung datang'
well, have you ever wonder why? (but, actually, I don't really care about this right now because I think I am too young for that kind of stuff, I am not really into commitment issue right now. hehe)

Feels Like Holiday and Hiatus All The Time

I smell like beach~

This month is absolutely holiday season, christmas and new year are on their way. But, the active college days of mine are still haunting until the end of January next year.
Erm, you know what, ever since I go to college, everyday feels like saturday to me. Nothing so serious, everyday. I go everywhere freely because the very spare schedule, unlike when I was in high school. It's like I'm hibernating from activity, and it's suck anyway.

I my self, as a lazy human being, feel sick of the unproductive spare time. It's ok if it is in a week, but in whole 3 month? it's horrible. Well okay, maybe I am not into the very-busy-college day yet. But seriously, I need some works.

PS: I also crave for road trip

Father vs Mother

Father and mother, there is no such a big deal for not having one of them, that's what people will think. But, you know, there are a lot of differences between women and men, that's why we are created as women and men, not all in the same sex.
Okay, in the normal condition of human, both mother and father are caring and protective. But.. who knows you better between them? Mother wins.
Women aren't snob creature. They tend to think their selves don't know anything, that's what make them know everything. Unlike the snob men that think they are such a know-everything human being. They absolutely think they are the most righteous person, their opinion is the best, they won't listen (that's the extreme version of the explanation)
There is a huge different huh? Yeah, woman such a kind hearted (I am woman). That's why we all love our mother and can't live without them.

Ps: I really miss my mother.
Dear mother, our father doesn't know how my skin problem is going so brutal right now, it hurts and disgusting.. err. I hope I have a mature woman that understand my need. Grandma doesn't help a lot anyway. you know, she is oldschool. Remember my first scratch over my calf? You really cure it like no mark at all! you are the most amazing woman. I wish you have internet connection in your place in order to read this and tell me how to treat my very sensitive skin. xoxo.

Saturday's Brunch

I am a big fan of pop corn..
and I usually make my own homemade popcorn, it could be sweet, salty, caramelized, barbeque seasoned, cheesy, and everything.
This afternoon, I make this caramelized popcorn for myself. a big handful of corn seeds all for my self :D~~~

Here some tips from me to make this caramelized pop corn:
1. cook the seeds, as usual, add some salts while the seeds aren't popping yet (just because this is sweet food doesn't mean you don't add any salt)
2. when your pop corn is ready, start to make the caramel
3. add some sugar to a pot (the smallest one is the best), then add some water which is in a same amount as the sugar, but add 3 more teaspoon of water.
4. cook the sugar in a medium heat, stir it and on and on.
5. when it gets bubbly, stop stiring. just leave it until the caramel color appears. (kind of gold or light brown) your caramel supposed to be sticky and free from sugar pulp.
6. quickly pour the caramel to the pop corn (I prefer you put the popcorn at a flat plate). mix it.
7. eat while it's warm and crunchy~

your popcorn should stick to each other like this because of the very-deliciuous-sticky-caramel :D~

have a nice weekend everybody ;)

Wake Up As A Different Person

fight club, this movie is so smart. okay not that smart, but yeah, smart.

I sometimes wish when I wake up tomorrow I'll be the person I want to be. Yeah, I always wish like that and maybe it's coming true (or at least will)

Kulo Nuwun Party 2011

Last night I and my college mates had a party that we've been working out for about 2 months.
That was very awesome party. I am proud to be part of them :--)

*damn the auto focus, won't work well (for me). this was my very first time using canon eos 50d...*